Well I am one day out from turning 30. This has really been weighing on me the past few days. When I was younger, I remember having to make a list of things that I thought that I would accomplish by the time I turned 30. I don’t know where that actual list now lives, but I have a pretty good idea of the the stuff that was on it, and I am pretty sure that many of those things have not been achieved. There were probably things on there like have a mansion, and multiple cars, 2.5 kids and a picket fence.
I am doing well for myself, but I find it scary how quickly I have reached this point when it seems like it was just a couple of years ago that I was leaving high school and starting college. I find myself playing the “what if” game over the past few weeks. What if I realized that I was going to major in marketing instead of music? Where would I have ended up going to school? What hobbies would I have now? What city would I be living in etc? I know that this serves no purpose as we don’t have a time machine to go back and see how things could have played out if another path would have been followed. I do think that it would be great to have a It’s a Wonderful Life moment just to see how things would be different, but this bodes the question, would I like what I saw? Would I still be doing the hobbies that I enjoy so much today?
Many of the people who I went to school with have families and that really freaks me out. That is one of the things that really helps to drive in the point that you are getting older when your college and high school buddies go from weekend trips to the bar to weekend trips to babies R us.
I guess I have to look at tomorrow as just another day. I don’t think that when I wake up in the morning there will be an earth shattering change in how I have to go about my day to day life. I just need to find a way to shake this quasi birthday depression so that I can get back to my regularly scheduled programming.
